another poem

inside
- Nicholas Nery


so close,
so far.

so brave,
too timid to act.

ready,
unwilling.

a mass of contradictions,
conflicting descriptions,
thoughts race in ever flowing repetition,
every recollection.
scenarios play,
fearful of every depiction.

hiding,
running.

from the subjugation of humiliation,
regardless of the possible sublimation,
in an effort to increase our relation.

so i lie,
in wait,
in hope,
as i recite this incantation...


living,
loving,
learning,
losing,
make the move or not im choosing.
cause im feelin' you,
are you feelin me?
just say the word and together we'll be.

forever and ever till time itself collapses,
till the very essence of life relapses.

i can give you my all,
keep you happy,
warm,
healthy.

you'll never get cold,
never have to grow old,
just say that you need me,

so dope

page 17

Let.
Nicholas Nery
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Let it all out,


Let it all go


Set your soul free,


Let your heart flow,


Lose self-control.





Dismiss your fear,


discard your doubt,


relieve your frustration,


go ahead and shout.




I know this is hard,


sometimes it seems impossible,





But I beleive that your stong,


sometimes even more so its true.




So even if you think that I'm wrong,


I'm right behind,


and i promise,


that ill catch you.

page 16

inevitable
Nicholas Nery
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lately it feels like your fading,
becoming my past,
leaving my present,
i took it slow,
but it seems im gonna regret it.
i just wanted things to last,
plain,
simple,
but it was determined before the first day past,
we couldnt fight it,
i couldnt fight it,
its done,
just give up,
concede,
our time is over,
the love is gone,
my heart emptied.

page 15

lies.
Nicholas Nery
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love,
life,
loss,

youre so special, so unique.
but theres so many of you.

this is so perfect, so different.
so why has this happened before?

you told me how you hate this feeling and anyone who causes it.
so whyre you making me feel this way?

you promised me joy,
why are you making me cry?

you promised me love forever,
whyre you walking away?

page 14

[UNTITLED](read @ poetry club)
Nicholas Nery
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so special,
so unique,
revolutionary.
breaking barriers,
busting bars,
spreading like fire,
incendiary.
this feeling deep down inside is growing,
i try to force it to desist,
i insist,
taking it slow is better im convinced.
but things have already been set in motion,
moving at their own pace,
taking up all the space,
engulfing my heart.
swallowing me whole,
taking control,
of my mind, body, and soul.

page 13

[UNTITLED]
-Nicholas Nery
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Loving,
Living,
Learning,
Yearning,
Feeling,
Being,
apart from you,
unbearable its true,
you are a part of me,
the very reason i breathe,
the very reason i know,
that if you were to ever go,
so would my soul,
my world,
i would cease to be.
my loving,
turned to losing.
heart,
to dust.
gone with the wind.
never to come back again.